In thinking back over the past year, my high point was my low point. The struggle to decide to move my gallery was the 800 pound gorrilla in my life. In the interlude, while we were in Mexico (how gloriously providential that it was provided and paid for well in advance) was also both. Coming to the realization that the continuous struggle to monetize my passion, and promote and make the artists in my gallery successful had so weighted me that I was exhausted even to stand up was an earth-shattering understanding to me. Finding a way back was tenuous and scary for me. I had lost sight of the goal and been overwhelmed by the task of getting there. When? I'm not sure, but sure that I couldn't see the forest for the trees.
Being away from it all, no phone, often no internet, no gallery, cleared the windsheild of my soul and let me see it. Then the question was, do i let it go and walk away? or do I let it go and hang on for dear life to see where it would take me.
I guess by now you know I chose the latter. I can't explain the sense of well-being or the upward bend of the corners of my mouth. If I listen to the pundits on TV I'll be out of business by the end of the first quarter of 09. For some reason, I just don't believe that.
And so, Happy New Year.
I'm working on a new website, by the way. I'm working on a 26 week (or more ) course in drawing and painting. Video instruction. I'm laying out the curriculum and researching hosts and how to offer it. I'll start recording as soon as next week. Drawing will come first, since that is really the foundation of every good painting, even the ones that get drawn with a brush. Watch for news of it and I'll send the links to it from here, so follow this blog with the link on the right.
And for now, the sun is shining and the sky is clear. I'm unabashedly optimistic and moving forward like it matters. My resolution? I don't really have one, but I am setting new goals and ways to reach them. May you reach yours too.
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